The Senses of Djerassi
Yesterday was Pamela Djerassi's death anniversary. Her brother Dale joined us for dinner. He gave a very moving speech about Pamela's suicide and yesterday being that anniversary. How hard suicide is for those left behind.
Pamela was born 4 years before me. She took her life at 28. I think back to when I was 28 and where I was - what I was thinking. My mother had died when I was 25 - from cancer. I had helped care for her before her death, along with my father. It was hard for her to die. I watched her and held her hand while one of my brothers held my other hand. Dying is hard.
This beautiful residency was created in Pamela's honor - to support women (and later all) artists. If I listen attentively I think I hear Pamela's soft footsteps next to me on the path, with the distant cows bellowing, and endless birds talking.
Such a loss, Pamela. But you have given us so much. I am deeply grateful - and will imagine our conversations for the rest of my residency.